I just don’t know if I can watch a third person I love, get buried within six months time.
I think the hardest part of this is staying away from you, keeping my distance. Because I miss you more than anything. Mostly your voice, but also just to know you’re there to talk to all day. And now that’s gone I feel so empty. These dreams in which I’m dieing are the best I’ve ever had.
I’ll lie awake once again, and think of all the things that could have been, and all the things I wish were in the present. And I’ll know that it is my own fault for being too weak. My only comforting thought is that I’ve done the right thing for you. Even if its killed me inside to do it. You’ll haunt me in my sleep again, just like you always have.
Okay, I seriously don’t get why people feel the necessity to get involved in other peoples business. Especially nowadays relationships, because the last time I checked, a relationship is for 2 people. Not the entire fucking world. So before you go saying shit that people should mind their own fucking business you should do well to remember that you’re the exact fucking same! Even worse because you did it for your own personal gain. I honestly can’t express just enough how strongly I feel about this. Or how pissed off it still makes me even after such a long time.
Okay rant over. Sorry guys :)
It’s such a relief to be finally done with school, and sure it’s something that has shaped me into who I am, but I really just can’t wait to get away from here and ‘seek the great perhaps’ because it sure isn’t here in England. Plus its such a relief to know that my summer starts today. PLUS I have work tonight. yay.
Please, just no, no no no no no no.
kill me now plsss or message me. Either one :D
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Feeling great :)